I went to the toilet and threw up and then I dragged my lover out of the pub and went straight to the off-licence where I bought a litre bottle of vodka and drank it at his house until I passed out.
I can’t help but feeling betrayed by my mother and my husband.
My mother is 54 years old and is breathtakingly beautiful and, unlike me, hasn’t let her body go.
My husband, who is also handsome and fit, looked like he was happier than I had ever seen him.
I am a 34 year old straight woman in an open marriage with a 39 year straight man.
I have taken far more advantage of the openness of our marriage than my husband, at least until recently.
Knowing I can’t go back to my life as it once was makes me miss it so much.My mother is the one having long talks with my husband at night, or going to a nice restaurant with him or the theatre and I am at a grubby pub every night with my alcoholic lover.I have started stalking them, sitting in the car down the street from our house, drinking vodka from the bottle, and watching them come out hand in hand to play tennis in the courts down the street or go out to dinner.My husband would be disgusted with the way I have let myself go and would probably refuse to have sex with me but he’s happily screwing my mother now and enjoying her perfect body. I would love to put an end to their happy little relationship.It is sick that my mother stole her daughter’s husband and I despise her for that.